From the moment that I decided to create the life that I want to have in 2014, it has been an uphill battle. Families thought it is a mistake! I lost friends as well. When a person makes a life-changing decision, it is not just about what it is, it is about the person as well. It is a personal growth! It is someone who actually wants to make the most out of life. When there is change, it is almost normal that some people who will reject that idea. But what’s more important? My life! I want to expand my knowledge, change my lifestyle, and whatever I want to change. Sad to get no support from family but I rather have the life that I want then feeling trap. It is not easy but I decided to make the change regardless of what the outcome will be. In this process, I have to go back to college. While I am exciting everything I learn, no one care to listen. They just turned their faces away like “Shut up! Who cares!” Sometimes, I do slip back where I just feel so tired, and depressed from my closed families reactions! Ain’t they supposed to be the biggest supporters? Yeah right?!! It seems like they are the worst. One person said it is because they like you to fit into them. When you change, the uncertainty of who you will become fear them! Logically, I understand but emotionally I still think it is rather silly! At least, my wonderful instructor and college friends are supportive. If one thing I have learned from my past, it is to follow my heart. After seeing someone who was very close to me and all she said was “I wish…”, “I wish…”….the countless “I wish…” before she died. Ever since then, I made a promise to myself that I will only count blessings and no regret! Maybe I won’t able to achieve what I want with my decision and everyone could have a good laugh and say, “I told you so!” but at least I tried with all my best! I will have no regret!
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